Without even delving into the traditional meanings of this card, the image of it already spoke to my emotional state right now. I am currently dealing with a new feeling for me: heartache from requited love. This comes from someone I love very much who, for various reasons (distance, money, current Paths), I cannot be with right now.
In dealing with this, I know (and he would constantly remind me) that I have tools to keep myself grounded and aligned. It’s funny, though, because I sometimes consciously don’t use them in moments like these. It makes me feel like I’m detaching myself from the situation… sort of like when you’re angry or sad and you refuse comforting from anyone. Is it right or wrong? I can’t really say. I do think it’s silly, though.
Using my tools–meditation, grounding and centering, aligning my souls, talking to my guides and deities–do not stop me from feeling what I’m feeling. If anything, it allows me to feel it more deeply through helping me understand what I want and need. Of course, I’m talking here on an intellectual level. When in the midst of something truly emotional, it is hard to tell yourself to be rational.
The Seven of Arrows (Swords), however, does the reminding for me. A green woman is assaulted by all sides as she tries to lift her arms in blessing. Although the title of the card here is “Insecurity”, the deeper meaning I receive is that even when I am surrounded with grief and confusion and feelings of unfairness and resentment that I am still sovereign unto myself. I have these tools and my own Holy Self to draw upon. I’m a Witch, damn it!
So that’s what I’ll be focusing on–tapping into my own innate powers and the powers around me. I’ll draw nourishment up. I’ll find peace despite the emotional “assaults”. I will gain clarity, and through that, I will heal.